The real curve ball, dear friend, is you. Fear expects you to cower or throw a pity party. Our fear-based society expects you to cower and throw a pity party. Step up to the plate and throw that fuggin' curve ball my friend. I assure you, there will be people there to support you, whichever path you choose, but hear this: You are Stronger than You Know.
I believe that life does not give us things we can not handle. It's all a test of sorts, I call them lessons. Life gives us lessons, our job is to learn and grow from these; if you think you are not ready and therefore do not show up for your lesson (in one form or another), then life is going to keep it rolling back around. Same lesson, different scenario. Have you heard of this at all?
I shared on social media yesterday that a family emergency jolted me awake and had me scrambling to get myself together and flee the house to drive three hours north. I'm guessing I'll be gone for at least two weeks, but I really don't know. The first thing that came to my mind? Go meditate. Go sit with your self, gather yourself, feel better, find your strength, and carry it with you through this lesson.
Coming out of my meditation I was overwhelmed with gratitude and a little mantra came to me that I wrote down and have been literally carrying with me in my pocket: Thank you Universe, for guiding me through this lesson of life with the teacher of love (instead of fear). I thought about how if I got that job I desperately wanted last month, I wouldn't be able to come up here. I thought about how if my boyfriend didn't get home two weeks early from his job, it may have been another month until I got to spend quality time with him. I thought about how if not for this event (though of course in undesired circumstances) I wouldn't have gotten to see my father while he was in town. Gratitude flooded over me and I kept repeating to myself, I choose the teacher of love over fear. Fear has no place here. Only space to be, because you sure as hell know it will be there, but no place to chime in or speak up. I learn through love. I am love. I spread love. And on and on I reassured myself of my power.
A couple days ago, in accordance to the book I'm currently listening to (The Universe Has Your Back by Gabby Bernstein) I asked the Universe to show me a sign that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in this life right now. Gabby's book also guided me that life would show up in it's own way and not to expect anything. I decided to pick something completely random that would make no sense and therefore I would know when the signs showed up. I chose birds. Not just a single bird, but multiple birds. When I was outside in the rain this morning doing a quick grill of veggies before my split, I looked up into the sky and saw three sparrows flying around. I immediately got tingles all over my body. Do birds usually come out in the rain like this? I wondered to myself. Regardless, I felt the sign. Then, on my drive up to be with my family today, Bob Marley's song Three Little Birds came on my Pandora station. I wouldn't have thought much of it, except this song rarely comes up on this station. Today, really? Again, the tingles, and this time some tears too. I hear and feel the Universe supporting me and I think it's time I speak out about it, because I believe there is a loving, higher power - be it the Universe, Spirit, or plain and simple Mother Nature - and I believe we, ourselves are so much more powerful than we were ever taught to believe.
So, when life throws you your next supposed obstacle, stop and ask yourself:
How can I see this with love? How can I learn from this?
Challenge yourself to step up to the plate. I have faith in you, all you need is faith in yourself. Explore some of your limiting beliefs - Why do you feel like you can't? What's holding you back? Remember: don't let fear win. Lean into love.